5 weeks...

It's been several weeks since I've posted, thought it was time for an update! July has been an interesting month in regards to weight loss. During this month I've only lost about 3 pounds, I thought I would have lost 10 lbs this month according to the 2 lb a week rule, but not for me. I'm thinking that the less I start to weigh the harder it is I have to work to get it off, but I am very happy with a 3 lb loss. I've exercised a lot this month, I got a bike which I've ridden a few times & hope to ride more once the weather cooperates.

I started this weight loss journey in September 2006, I promptly lost 24 -26 pounds in 3 months & that weight has stayed off for the past 3 years. During the last 3 years I've lost & gained 10-15 lbs about 6 times. This is what scares me! I've lost 43.6 lbs total to date & I have only 6.4 lbs to go & I'm more scared that I'll gain it back. It is so easy to get comfortable & just put the weight back on. I don't want this to happen, I have worked really hard. My surgery that is coming up in 5 weeks (yikes!) has been my main motivation for getting the remaining of this weight off. I know once I have the surgery if I gain weight the surgery will have been a waste. I am hoping & praying that I can continue to lose more weight & then the hardest part of all, keeping it off!!

Losing this weight, I have gone down 2 sizes, I bought a size 11 skirt the other day, I can't even tell you the last time I wore a fitted skirt, probably before I was married which was 12 years ago. I need all new clothes, which is a good thing but is also very scary. I'm scared because of the whole gaining it back thing, if I buy all new clothes & then gain, I'll be VERY upset. But I do need clothes that fit!! There is a part of me that is very excited to finally be in a size that I want to be, but now I want to be a size 9/10 which I'm going to have to work very hard to get, but I'll get there. I even bought myself a takini, which will look amazing after my surgery, right now it is very tight on top!!

I know this post has been all over the place, I still have August left (4 weeks), hoping to lose more weight & to keep it up!! Only 5 weeks till surgery & only 6.4 lbs till 50 lbs gone (my goal) which I honestly never thought I would get to, but I kow I will get there & maybe even surpass it!!